"What the heck were you thinking?!" Cas shouts. "Taking on a whole nest?! Stupid Hill! If your brothers were here they would kill you!" I couldn't help it. I burst into tears. "Well they're not here Cas! Deans dead! Stabbed! Sam's out drinking 24/7! I have no one! No one else to hunt with! And hunting is the only way I cope! So don't swoop in and save me! I had to do this! ON MY OWN!" I'm bawling but I don't care. Cas stands there silent. But then slowly, pulls me into a hug.