Today's song. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjPhzgxe3L0. Bless him, what a poseur. I hear he has cancer now, well that's no surprise to me. I hope he put's that angry belligerent attitude he still has towards healing himself, poor blighter. I do not want this blog to be miserable, I do not.. I do not want to feel miserable.However there are some days like today when there's just no pretending. I feel miz. Things have taken a turn for the worst over the past month and there's been no let up. I'm on very little sleep and my body is complaining in a most assertive manner. I'm also bored, so bored with this condition; all the hard work. I want to be working creatively but I have no where to work from and just one client at the moment. The offers of a space to work from while I build up my private practice have fallen through and I'm trying not to panic because it appears that yet more of my previous life must fall by the wayside. There's a powerful sense of loss around for me today. Oh me oh my! I did make it to Daren Callow's wonderful, hilarious at times and very moving show at the Kitchen Window Gallery on Sunday: http://thekitchenwindowgallery.blogspot.co.uk/. Really worth a look. I also had to get to other appointments yesterday, so I guess this is the fall-out. I went back to see the Kinesiologist Roger Dyson. He did some extensive testing and we discovered that most of the supplements that I am taking are not particularly helpful to my body at the moment and one of them is actually too much for my liver to deal with and is actually causing me more harm than good. This is because my liver is still very toxic and working very hard to clear out any nastiness in my body. This is what I meant when I spoke previously about the risks of experimentation and there really is no other way than trial and error sometimes. My understanding from Roger is that this is not to say that the supplements will not be useful in the future, just that I need to approach things even more gradually and gently than I have been so far because my liver just can't cope with any extra processing right now. It's really damaged. Roger has also confirmed my suspicion that there is a huge issue with mercury fillings releasing poison into my system. I had suspected this for some time having done some of my own research, because every flare-up seems to start around my mouth, ear and throat, in very close proximity with the fillings. So while the mercury in my fillings is not the cause of my ill health it is a significant factor in the healing picture. This is because the mercury is overriding my body's attempts to absorb essential vitamins and minerals.All this means that all my hard work is being scuppered before it has a chance to work. Please check out the footage of amalgam filled teeth leaking mercury, it's terrifying. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ylnQ-T7oiA Who's bizarre idea was it to put the most poisonous substance known to man in our mouths?? It's all about money of course. Roger's advice is to have the fillings removed as a priority otherwise I will continue to go around and round in circles. This is exactly what I am feeling like. It's as if I'm in a treadmill. Everytime I get my body to a certain point everything just seems to ping right back to the beginning again and it's really taking it's toll on my skin and my mental health. The good news is that a friend and I are going to be picking up that free 8ft by 8ft shed tomorrow. I have high hopes for that shed! Fingers crossed I can adapt it into a small work space AND EVERYTHING CROSSED we can actuallly take it apart and get it back here without me collapsing. I have an image of Dylan Thomas's boathouse in mind, fabulous! and staying with the welsh feel here's a joke to make you smile 'Doc, I can't stop singing the 'Green Green Grass of Home'. He said: 'That sounds like Tom Jones syndrome'. 'Is it common?'I asked.'It's not unusual' he replied. Boom boom! See, I will not be defeated!!