I did not want to get sober when I was 21. I went to rehab because I was killing myself and literally thought, "I just need a reset." That first rehab was not about finding sobriety at all. But, it did plant the seeds that I was actually an addict/alcoholic and that recovery was available. So, when a few years later, I was ready to give sobriety a real try, I knew what to do and where to go to get clean and sober and stay that way.